I don’t have any reason to suspect that he is gay or even bi.I thought that would only cause problems with the friendship, regardless of whether he knew about the fantasy or not.
I wanted to see him as a good friend, not as the object of some fantasy. But I tried to keep that fantasy out of my mind as much as possible because I valued his friendship so much. I’m definitely attracted to this guy, and I guess hooking up with him was always a fantasy of mine.He has always been very supportive of my lifestyle, and is always there for me to talk to. He was one of the first people I came out to.